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The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul. – Psalm 23:1-3

I keep having drinking dreams. They’re just awful. I’m so grateful to be sober. We watched “The Days of Wine and Roses” the other night. It sent shivers up my spine; especially when they read the preamble from A.A. I felt so grateful and full of awe over the power that A.A. has had in my life; the power that God has had in my life. I’ve come a long way from living in a two-room duplex with trash piled in the corner, the ironing board sitting in the middle of the living room, the cat drinking from the cat box, and the fridge having nothing in it but vodka, wine, and beer. I can’t even believe that person was me, but I remember it. I hope I never forget.

All I’ve ever wanted was to be was happy. I have all I ever wanted and so much more. My life is overflowing with an abundance of love and joy and laughter and friendship. I am whole and complete.

Thank You, God!!!

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“What do I want to do in life?”Here I assume a reason for living that is separate from life.- Hugh Prather

The other day I was sitting in my rocker, nursing the baby, and listening to the other kids bicker over homework. I had dinner in the oven and about a million loads of laundry to fold. All I could think was, “This is fun.” Last night, I woke up and realized that what I had been experiencing were the sounds and feelings of a “family;” my family. I guess that’s all I ever really needed; to be a part of a family. It’s not over-rated. I’m so grateful to be experiencing these simple things. I’m so grateful to live! I love my simple, beautiful life!

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One of the acronyms for GOD is “Good Orderly Direction.” I Have confused “direction” with “details.” All I can do each day is face in God’s direction and let go. It’s like being a sailboat and God is the wind. I don’t know which way the wind is going to blow. I just have to concern myself with getting the sails up; not with painting angels on the side of the boat for all to see. All I have to do is live; one day at a time.

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“God always takes the simplest way” – Albert Einstein

I’ve finally decided that I don’t care if the journal is significant or not. If the work is meant to get organized, it will, but I’m tired of concerning myself with it. Sure, I’m willing to share my experience, strength, and hope, but on the other hand, I’m busy living it. I had a nagging feeling about not having enough time to write. I told myself, “I just have to do something worthwhile.” Then the little voice said, “LIVING YOUR LIFE IS WORTHWHILE.” The little voice is right.  

I don’t need the world’s approval for my life to be worthwhile. I just don’t need to be a big deal anymore because being an ordinary human being is enough. My deepest heart’s desire has come true because I’ve found the love, acceptance, and belonging that I believed would come from being “important.” 

Who would have thought that being a housewife and mother would hold the secrets and treasures of existence? I wouldn’t have and that point exemplifies exactly just how much I don’t know. 

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“Your freedom when it loses its fetters becomes itself the fetter of a greater freedom.” – Kahlil Gibran

This week has been a rude awakening for me. I get to see how I thrive on crisis: how I love to coax unreasonable men into reasonableness; how I find self-worth in “fixing” other people; how I play God. This whole week had been uncomfortable because my husband has been embracing life rather than resisting it. Immediately I began resisting him, trying to keep the turmoil in action … trying to find some sort of balance.

All of this makes me frantic because I’m seeing that I still have issues; that I suffer from a disease that tells me I don’t have one. My first reaction is to beat up on myself for not being perfect or shame myself because I’m not. Ego! Spiritual Pride! Cocky Self-Assurance! Get behind me, Satan! I guess the bottom line is that God has a gentle way of reminding me that He’s God; not me. 

It seems that the deeper I go I find new levels where I have not yet come to believe that I am lovable and worthy. I’m willing, though.

GUESS WHAT? YOU’RE NOT SUPER-HUMAN. YOU CAN’T DO IT ALONE. YOU NEED ME AND YOU NEED OTHER PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE TO LOVE YOU. YOU NEED HIM JUST AS MUCH AS HE HAS NEEDED YOU. IT’S OKAY TO NEED PEOPLE.

I feel like such a fool. I can be so grandiose and self-centered.

PRECIOUS CHILD, IT JUST DOESN’T GET ANY BIGGER ON PLANET EARTH THAN BEING A CHILD OF GOD. I LOVE YOU. EVERYTHING IS AS IT SHOULD BE. RELAX. SURRENDER. LET GO.  

I found my security in believing that he needs me to help him and to fix him and to save him. I guess I just realized that he does need me still, but not because of what I can do for him, but for who I am to him. Not doing; being. How many times have I learned that? Our worth comes not from our actions, but from our inherent being. If true to ourselves, then good works just naturally flow. New ideas become old ideas which, when released, give birth to newer ideas ad infinitum. Life’s a trip!

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