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And could you keep your heart in wonder at the daily miracles of your life, your pain would not seem less wondrous than your joy; and you would accept the seasons of your heart, even as you have always accepted the seasons that pass over your fields. And you would watch with serenity through the winters of your grief. – Kahlil Gibran

I have been experiencing intense emotion over Hope’s shooting and recovery. In many ways, I feel emotionally devastated. However, this experience has shone a great light on the magnitude of God’s Grace.

When Hope was in the ICU in critical condition, our visitors would ask me, “How are you doing this?” I would reply that I did not know. All I did know was that my daughter needed me and that my mission in life at that time was to be there; to cut the remaining acrylic nails off of her fingers, to clean the blood from underneath her real nails, to wipe the drool from her face and throat, to clean her body when her bodily functions were uncontrollable – to simply do whatever needed to be done and to be present for her. What I saw was a broken child who was on her road to recovery.

Now that we are home, many of my friends have admitted that they did not believe that Hope would survive. I can honestly say that there was only one brief moment that I did not believe that she would recover. Three days after the shooting, we were told that it was unlikely that Hope would survive the day. In a solemn moment in the waiting room, the entire family was gathered in utter silence and despair. The hospital staff averted our glances in sadness. My husband was seated in a chair; stunned, with tears flowing down his face. I searched my mind to remember the date; the date of Hope’s death. But then something amazing happened; I felt led to approach my husband and to encourage him. “We can do this,” I said. “As long as we stick together, we can get through this.” Then the Spirit of the Risen Jesus spoke to me, “Only supernatural grace can make a grieving mother a comfort to others.” In that moment, I knew that Hope would not die on August 6th, 2015. In that moment, I knew that God’s Grace is sufficient in all circumstances.

However, today I see that God’s Grace carried me not only through that moment, but through the entire experience because, today, I can feel the emotions that were not available to me at the time of her hospitalization. Yesterday, I watched the video of Hope’s first steps after the shooting. She was fragile and unsteady. She could not balance her gravely injured head. She could only take a few steps before needing to sit down. She had minimal understanding of what was happening. As I watched the video, I broke into tears that have flowed for the last 24 hours. The reality of the devastation of her injury crashed into my awareness; along with the awareness of the magnitude of God’s supernatural Grace. These sorrowful tears are also tears of gratitude. I give thanks to God for a brokenness that creates more space for Himself. I give thanks to God for His Power that can transform horror into holiness. I give thanks to God for making a grieving mother a comfort to others. And may the God of Love bring comfort, power, and peace to you. Namaste.

The Journey Continues

September 17, 2015

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My eve was in truth my dawn. – Kahlil Gibran

Yesterday as I was driving home, I saw a young woman walking down the side of the busy street. My heart immediately sank as I was reminded of the pain and fear that I experienced last year when my daughter, Hope, was living on the streets and using methamphetamine. I can honestly say that the seven months that my daughter was using in 2014 were the most devastating days of my life. I lived in constant fear of receiving a phone call or a knock on the door; informing me that my daughter was either dead or seriously injured.

Ironically, on August 3rd of this year, I received a phone call from John Peter Smith Hospital’s ICU notifying me that my daughter was there; that I needed to come to the hospital as soon as possible. When I arrived, I was informed that my daughter was suffering from a gunshot wound to the head. The doctor told me that he was “not optimistic” about her recovery. Miraculously, my daughter did recover and is now at home with me; sleeping peacefully in the other room.

The reason that I am contrasting these two events is because I am overwhelmed by the “peace that passes understanding” available through the Spirit of the Risen Jesus. As I said, when I lived in fear of that phone call, my life was overcome by despair. However, when the circumstances actually came to pass, I was able to walk through the situation with an uncanny sense of serenity. I believe that this dichotomy occurred because God cannot be present in my fears of the uncertain future; whereas He is wholly present in the “now” moments of my life.

Similarly, in the early days following Hope’s shooting, I would torture myself envisioning the horror that Hope had endured. In the midst of one of my morning imaginings, the spirit spoke to me clearly, “Don’t worry about what Hope endured; because I carried the burden of the experience for her; just as I am carrying the burden of this experience for you.” In than moment, I clearly understood that the past had no power over my present moment. I realized that “now” is the only true reality and that God is sovereign in every “now” moment; not just for me, but for anyone who seeks Him.

The Bible says that Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. But in the reality of God, there is only “now,” as time gives way to eternity. I thank God that His promises are true; that He will never leave me or forsake me. And I pray that the Lord will bless you and keep you; and that, as you turn your face toward Him, He will give you peace that surpasses all understanding. Namaste, friends.


The Journey Continues

September 3, 2015

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Man is not blessed because God is in him and so near that he has God – but in that he is aware of how near God is, and knowing God, he loves him. – Meister Eckhart

It’s occurred to me that I need to consider the possibility that everything I’ve ever believed is not true; not pick and choose what to let go of, but to just let go of it all … and see what remains.

Wonder if I’m not who I think I am?  Wonder if the most important thing I’ll ever do is love the people around me?  Something has changed, but I’m not sure what.  What once seemed alluring to me about myself is becoming rough and jagged.

I have already received the highest level of recognition that I can ever receive – I know who I am. I know that I am okay, but I am truly realizing that a greater recognition is who I am not. I am not God. The Spirit moves through me at times, but that has nothing to do with me. I am nothing of myself.

I must be an empty vessel – suspend all judgment against others … and against myself. By thought, word, or deed, harm no one … not even me … be an empty space … take the “I” out of me and create a space … a blank page to write the name of everyone I meet in love … and don’t forget my name also.

I tend to switch back and forth between judging others and beating myself up for judging others. Peace … be still … and know that I AM is God … something is changing … the wind is changing. I release myself into Your hands, Abba … my Father … my Mother … my All … my God.

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Preparing A Servant

August 17, 1999


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I Am The Lord Your God And I Say To You, “I Hear Your Cry.”  Would I Leave You Homeless – An Orphan?  Do You Think That You Could Possibly Have A Problem That I Do Not Have A Solution For?  Of Course Not, My Beloved Children.  I Love You And My Greatest Desire Is To Lovingly Care For You Always. 

You Say That You Are Desperate For Me.  Well, I Am Desperate For You Also.  We Share The Same Longing For Each Other.  You Cry For More Of Me – More Love, More Power.  I Have Given You Everything Already.  Stir It Up!  Press Deep Down Into My Love For You.  You Cannot Even Begin Maslow’s Climb Without My Love For First Cause Is Not The Mind Of God, But The Heart Of God;  Not Thought, But Love.

Before I Return, You Must Prepare My Bride. To Enable This, I Am Tearing Down Babylon; And Jerusalem Will Rise From The Ashes. As I Invade Satan’s Towers – Science, Academia, Religion, The Media, Technology, The Arts – I Will Recover What Was Stolen From Me.  Nothing That Is Hidden Is Not Meant To Be Revealed And I Have Saved My Best Wine For Last.  The Hidden Manna Will Be Revealed And It Will Be Glorious For Knowledge Of My Love For You Will Cover The Earth As The Water Covers The Sea.

As You Press In To My Love For You, I Will Rise Up Within You For This Is The Hope Of True Glory; To Share It With You.  You Are My Weapons Of Mass Destruction, Yet I Destroy With Fierce Love For Nothing Can Contain The Spirit.  But You Must Contain Your Flesh If I Am To Rise Up To Meet Myself In My Coming Again.  Contain Your Flesh In Order To Withstand The Power That I Am Sending To You.  The Joel Outpouring Is NOW.  Prepare The Bride!  Turn Off The Television And Turn IN To Me!

Receive My Love And All Else Will Follow.  I Am Your God And You Are My Beloved.  Be Of Good Cheer For I Love You ALL.  Your Worst Fear Is A Nightmare For YOU ARE LOVED – Beyond Anything That You Can Imagine.  But It Will Not Be Real To You Until You Open The Door And Let Me In!  Receive My Love For I Am As Near As Your Breath.  The Only Thing That Travels Faster Than The Speed Of Light Is LOVE Because It Stands Forever.  I Am With You Always – Even Until The End Of The Age – But That Is Just The Beginning Of What I Have For You For The Very Best Is Yet To Come – FOREVER!

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The Power Of The Cross

June 26, 2004

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The course does not aim at teaching the meaning of love, for that is beyond what can be taught.  It does aim, however, at removing the blocks to the awareness of love’s presence, which is your natural inheritance. – A Course In Miracles

I had a joy attack on the way home from speaking last night and it really occurred to me how awesome it is when I experience God as “other” than me.  Maybe we really are one in eternity where there is no misperception of separation (I believe that), but as  long as I am perceiving myself as an individual human being on planet earth, the most joyous experience of my  life is the abiding sense that God is with me, but not me.  God gives me someone to worship other than myself.

I’ve always believed that worship is the response to God’s presence, but now I see that worship is the response to God, period.  Loving God is worship.  Thanking God is worship.  Seeking God is worship.  Loving others is worship.

I love the moments of reflection when the magnitude of how far God has brought me really sinks in.  What a beautiful journey; led by an awesome God.

I am so grateful to be at a place in my life where who I am, what I do, and what I have to offer are enough.  I don’t have my eyes on a lofty goal anymore because here and now is sufficient.  That doesn’t mean I don’t see the horizon.  It just means that I don’t feel like I’m nothing if I don’t get there.

I agree with ACIM that the work of Heaven is the removal of the blocks to the awareness of God’s love, but I do not agree that ABBA is oblivious to our miscreations.  I know in my heart of hearts that the purpose of the apparent split in the first place was for God to reproduce Him/Herself.

I believe that the Holy Spirit is God – and that anytime anyone truly repents (cries out for a change of mind and heart), the Spirit responds.  The various religions are simply different interpretations and responses to the experience.  And, unfortunately, most people have not had the experience – so their understanding comes from reading about the experience of others and being taught by others who have also only read about the experience.  Most people who think they know God only really know about Him.

But the day is coming when we shall all know Him and ourselves as we are.  Thy Kingdom come, ABBA.  Thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven.

The Journey Continues

June 14, 2012

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