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Life is a banquet.  And the tragedy is that most people are starving to death.. – Anthony DeMello

I did some crystal and drank some drinks, but they didn’t work. I prayed a minute ago because I keep thinking about suicide; even though I know with every fiber of my being that I cannot kill myself. I must live for my daughter if nothing else. She’s so beautiful and I love her so much.

I believe (hope) that this is just the beginning of an upward slope. I have to take it one day at a time because if I try to go much farther than that, I panic.  My hopes and dreams for my life seem very far out of reach. I want an education, a home of our own for the baby and me, a decent career so that I can take care of her, a healthy and loving relationship with a man, and most importantly, the ability to love and care for myself and to enjoy being the person that I am. I really believe that all of this will materialize as soon as I stop feeling lonely, depressed, and sorry for myself and start taking the steps necessary to get the mega-load of work accomplished that a dream like this requires.

I’ve always tried the softer, easier route, but I just can’t do that anymore because it won’t take me to the same place. Richard Bach says that “You are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it true.”  I believe that.

Tonight I spent a lot of time wishing that I could settle for so much less, but I can’t. For today, I know what I want so I guess it’s what I deserve to have. I am determined to grow – in spite of myself. Someday, I’ll be happy. I know I will. I believe in God with all my heart and I believe that my dreams are there for a reason. The prayers I said are working. I’m feeling better.

You may have to work for it, however. – Richard Bach

Unmasked Excerpt

Dogged Rebellion

January 16, 1988


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What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly. – Richard Bach

My daughter’s addiction to methamphetamine continues to worsen.  I can’t even describe the experience.  Each level of pain and loss brings new awareness of letting go and moving closer to God.  All of this really helps me to understand the ideas of detachment and the solitary journey.

My worst fear has always been to lose one of my children.  Now that I have lost my child to something even more heinous than death, I realize that we all lose our children – and ourselves – each and every day.  Each day is a death – and a birth – which makes me see how truly important it is to cherish each day – each and every moment.

However, in the midst of all this pain and loss is hope.  I have unshakeable faith in an omnipotent God and I truly know that the circumstances of this world are mere illusion in comparison to the joy of eternity.  So I give this to You, Lord – knowing and trusting that You know what You’re doing.  Thank You for a pain so deep that I have realized that all that is true is joy.

The Journey Continues

Sunday, July 13, 2014


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