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“I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.” – Oriah Mountain Dreamer

As beautiful and joyous and full as the spiritual path is, there’s just no getting around the fact that the farther you go, the more narrow the path becomes. It’s definitely a survival of the fittest thing because there’s just one seemingly huge obstacle after another that could easily be one’s undoing. I know that all that matters is guarding my sobriety with vigilance because as long as I take right action, I will be in the flow of God and all will be well.  

Sure, dreams come true; and I believe in fairy tales and dreams come true. However, in fairy tales and dreams you don’t see the part about the huge amount of work and character building required to maintain them. As time goes on, the words of the preamble for A.A. and the words of Jesus, Emerson, and other great thinkers ring so true to me. There is no easier, softer way. Life is not supposed to be easy; just lived to the fullest.

What a wonderful, most gracious God! Even though it’s difficult, I love my life and I truly love the person that I am becoming. I am becoming a person desires to love.

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It is better to light a single candle than to curse the darkness.

– Motto of the Christophers

I’ve always known that being alone for a while was inevitable, but I guess I used to think that I’d have a choice. I realize now that I don’t have a choice. I see that when God is ready for me to face something, I have to face it. I can’t escape.

I just don’t know what’s going to happen with Troy. He’s afraid of me after the death threats. Maybe he should be. I’m trying not to be too hard on myself about all of this. I’ve just been trying to pick myself back up and keep on keeping on. Like the motto says, “To try and fail is hopeful.” I haven’t given up yet. I never do.

I truly believe that everything that happens is a part of God’s divine plan. At this point, I’d kind of enjoy an encouraging telegram from Him telling me what I have to look forward to, but I believe that whatever it is, it will be better than I can imagine. I’ve seen dark days before and they passed. They usually even developed into shiny new beginnings.  I believe that it is darkest before the dawn. I just hope that the sun starts shining soon. I feel a little shaky and insecure, but I still have hope that the best is yet to come. I thank God for the painful lessons because I know that this deal with Troy will really help me to grow. I thank God for the privilege of being alive.

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May 22, 1991


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