Paige Thomas DeHart

“Your children are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.” – Kahlil Gibran

I am coming to acceptance that my role of parent is at its end. I will always be a mother, but it is not my job to guide and instruct my children; unless they ask.

I have had difficulty letting go because the parenting of my youngest child was interrupted by addiction and tragedy. I have felt incomplete because I was not able to finish what I started with the many lessons I had hoped to share. However, today God showed me that the lessons indeed continue, but they are not the lessons that I am to teach my daughter. They are the lessons that God is teaching me.

Today I was in tears because of fears for my daughter’s well-being. Then God reminded me that He is ever-present with all of us; continually working on behalf of our highest good. He also reminded me of my own mother’s tears when I was struggling through the early pains of growing up. Every situation I have experienced has contributed to the person that I am today; and all of the experiences of my children are seeds to their future authenticity.

God reminded me, as He has done so many times before, that my pain is the response to my limited perspective; to my clinging to the appearances of this world as if they are reality. He reminded me that all love is eternal and that nothing can separate me from His love for me; or my love for my children. Where I see shadows and light, God sees a colorful mosaic of eternal life and love.

So, yet again, I lay my children at Your feet and surrender my illusions of control. I trust You, Lord, to continue to remove the scales from my eyes; that all I may see is You.

The Journey Continues