“Once we accept our limits, we go beyond them.” – Albert Einstein
So many bad situations in my life stem from me not taking care of myself. I guess that I get desperately afraid that if I don’t let other people enmesh with me, I’ll lose them. I set enmeshment traps. I use my charm and sexuality and spirituality to lure them in and get them so involved in my process that they need me to help them define themselves. That is very sick and twisted.
I guess seeing this is the process to getting closer to God. It figures that when self-examination becomes sickening, you’re on the right path. It was more fun to look at myself and see glorious perfection. What a lie, though! I was using God as a public relations mode to promote myself. No wonder I fell on my butt.
Today, what I see when I look at myself is a lovable, valuable, imperfect, mixed up child of God. I like the kid, though. She’s real sweet and nutty. I guess I am finally learning to accept myself just as I am. Thank You, God!
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Paige Thomas DeHart 
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