Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it. – Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
I guess I need to look at my ego in relation to my physical appearance. Lately, I’ve finally started losing my weight again–for which I am grateful because it is one of my biggest obstacles. However, I’m less than halfway toward my goal and I already see myself becoming more self-centered because of the attention from others.
Dear God, I earnestly pray that You give me the humility I need in order to be successful in the accomplishment of my goals without losing myself and my commitment to You and to love.
Let’s talk about these goals because, frankly, I’m ready to begin. First, I want to continue to lose weight. I want to be beautiful on the inside and on the outside.
PAIGE, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL ON THE INSIDE AND ON THE OUTSIDE. JUST DON’T FORGET THAT THE OBJECTIVE OF LIFE IS TO LOVE ME WITH ALL OF YOUR HEART, MIND, AND SOUL … AND TO LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF.
I also want to write that book. This is the one that’s driving me crazy. I have procrastinated and procrastinated. It has been in the making since 1978 and it is definitely emerging its way into manifestation.
WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF, PAIGE?
I guess I really am afraid of success, but I am willing to change. There’s just no denying that life calls out to me in a big way. I know that this book is important and is a part of my destiny, but I feel paralyzed about really beginning. I’m tired of being afraid to succeed. I must do what I am here to do or I will be miserable and frustrated.
Help me, Father. Help me to begin. Take me to my true place.
With God’s help I am certain that I can blossom without becoming a monster. I guess I’m really afraid of myself. It just occurred to me that I am always talking about my vulnerability (basically my inner child) being incarcerated by the protective armor I have constructed with certain behaviors and characteristics. Now, I see that a part of me has believed that I’ve been keeping the “boogey man” chained under the stairs so it can’t destroy me.
PAIGE, THE ONLY THING THAT’S TRAPPED INSIDE OF YOU IS ME. THERE’S NOTHING TO BE AFRAID OF. ALL THAT IS REAL IS ME, BABY. I LOVE YOU. YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE AFRAID OF ME.
Sometimes this journal blows my mind to pieces.
Unmasked Excerpt
Soul Mate
March 9, 1995
Paige Thomas DeHart 
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