Paige Thomas DeHart

To get into the core of God at his greatest, one must first get into the core of himself at his least, for no one can know God who has not first known himself. – Meister Eckhart

“I have been an alcoholic, an addict, a compulsively overeating bulimic, a harlot, an adulteress, a child murderer, a manic depressive with psychotic tendencies, a liar, a cheater, and a thief.”

TBN asked for my biography.  I first sent over my professional biography; which highlights all of my accomplishments.  But later, after I had a while to think about it, I realized that the professional biography describes who I have become with God in my life.  Who I am without God is very clearly illustrated in the introduction to Unmasked (above) – so I sent that instead.

I am grateful for the principles of the 12-steps that have taught me to honestly examine myself – and for my awesome God who gives me the ability to have unconditional love and acceptance for myself – in spite of myself.  I truly believe that these tools that help me to examine my deepest motives in order to see the truth about myself are a gift.  They take me so much deeper than mere admission that I am a sinner.  They take me to the point of a sense of desperation without the power of a merciful God; a God who forgives and transforms.

I am grateful to know what I am without God – to completely understand that my life run on self-will can never succeed.  Otherwise, I could easily put God in a box as a get-out-of-hell-free card and pay lip service to the idea that we all fall short of the glory of God.  I am grateful to know that the bondage of self is true hell.

I am grateful to know that, of myself, I am beyond nothing – I am an alcoholic, an addict, a compulsively overeating bulimic …”

Thank You, amazing God!

The Journey Continues

Journal 24

June 15, 2014