May 31, 1996
The beat goes on. We’ve been going through the wringer over our inabilities to grow up and to face responsibility. I’ve never thought about things like job security and insurance benefits for my family. I’ve been such a child for such a long time.
It’s three months until the baby comes. I can’t imagine getting any bigger than I already am. This pregnancy shows! Anyway, for today, I accept it. Hope’s a kicking little jumping bean. I’m looking really forward to meeting her (and to being able to resume my fitness regime). This pregnancy has been stressful, but it has helped both Randy and me to grow up in a lot of ways. We have moments where we absolutely do not get along, but we get through it. Life is the good and the bad; the joy and the pain.
I really like the way life is unfolding. Everyone’s life is getting fuller, richer, and more mature. Even though some of this stuff is hard, I trust God and the process. Everything is exactly as it should be.
Thank You, God.
July 22, 1996
Life is very good. I never fail to be amazed at what a wonderful friendship Randy and I have. We have both changed so much since the beginning of the relationship. Together, we’re learning about loyalty, commitment, and integrity.
He has been so good to me lately. He consistently tells me how beautiful I am (I’m as big as the house!). He’s really been wonderful. The thing I’ve noticed is that, for once, I can let him be peaceful without creating a crisis. It’s real nice.
God is removing our defects and building our assets one day at a time. I have utter faith in the process. I have found my way home.
August 23, 1996
Hope Kelly DeHart was born yesterday at 3:16 p.m. She is an angel and my life is a blessing.
Thank You, God!
Your children are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself. – Kahlil Gibran